PSH bares his heart

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This is what started it for us — reading Park Si Hoo’s letter to fans that he read at his first Korea Fan Meeting on December 2, 2007.  We were moved to tears — by his sincerity, his genuineness, his deep-felt emotions.  Fast-forward four years to 2011, and he is essentially the same — just add a touch of self-deprecating humor and a large dose of self-confidence.

시후님의 마음으로

2007년 12월2일 시후님의 첫 번째 한국 팬미팅에서 팬들에게 읽었던 편지였습니다 – 이것은 저희가 시작한 일이었습니다. 시후님의 정직함、진심과 깊이 감명 받은 모습에 너무나 감동해서 눈물이 흘렀습니다. 그런데 시후님은 4년이 지났는데도 변하지 않았지만 유머감각과 자신감이 많이 늘어가는 것 같습니다.

朴施厚的心聲

我們的網站是由這裡開始的 — 2007年12月2日朴施厚在韓國舉行首次Fan Meeting, 在會上他公開誦讀了這封信.  我們被他感動到眼中帶淚 — 因為他的誠懇, 他的真摯, 他令人感觸的感情.  時光流轉到2011年, 他依然一如往昔 — 衹是添加了一些自嘲的幽默以及分量不輕的自信.

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This is Park Si Hoo’s original Korean version, followed by our English and Chinese translation:

(Even if you have seen the Chinese subtitles in video, please read our Chinese translation.)

처음엔 연기를 하겠다고 마음먹고 무작정 혼자 상경하고 싶었던 마음이 강했어요.   그래서인지~ 데뷔 전 여러 가지 어려움이 많았고 어린 나이도 아니라서 고민도 많이 했구요.

드라마 ‘결혼 합시다’와 ‘넌 어느 별에서 왔니’의 중복촬영에 슬럼프에 빠져 캐릭터가 잘 잡히지 않아 지적도 많이 받았고… 또 좋은 말씀해 주신 분들, 너무 고맙습니다.

아쉬움을 남긴 채 작품을 마치고 ‘완벽한 이웃’으로 또 찾아뵈었네요. 첫 작품들이 아쉬워 더 잘하려고 노력하다 보니까 오히려 여유가 없고 부담이 컸어요.

그런 와중에도 미흡하고 부족함이 많았던 저를 사랑해주시고, 위로해주시고, 걱정해주시는 시후랑 팬 여러분들 덕에 드라마 잘 끝내고 일지매로 또 찾아뵙게 되었습니다.

준비 중인 일지매 캐릭터를 위해 승마와 무술연습 열심히 하고 있고, 또 팬 여러분께 좋은 모습, 더 남성적이고 더 나아진 모습으로 찾아뵙기 위해 완벽한 이웃과는 또 다른 카리스마를 보여드릴 생각이예요.

인터뷰나 카메라 앞에서 긴장하고 떨려 말을 잇지 못할 때에도 팬들의 눈빛이 아닌 마치 친오빠처럼, 동생처럼, 애인처럼, 한 가족처럼, 바라봐 주시고 걱정어린눈빛으로 감동을 주신 분들 잊지 않을 것이고.

카페에 와주셔서(감정이 복받쳐 목이 멘 목소리로…) 저에게 용기를 주시는 그 한마디 한마디에 모두 답변을 해드리지는 못해도… 힘들고 괴로울 때 그 글 하나하나 빠짐없이 보며 눈물도 흘리고, 용기도 얻고, 감동도 받았다는 것, 잊지 말아 주셨으면 좋겠습니다.

더운 여름날 촬영장에 오셔서 응원도 해주시고 선물도 주고가신 것, 그로인해 제게 자신감을 주신 것, 촬영하느라 감사의 말씀도 제대로 못하고 대화도 잘 하지 못했던 것 이해해 주셔서… 또 많은 것을 함께 하지 못해서 미안한 마음 항상 갖고 있었다는 것, 알아주셨음 좋겠구요.

카페에서 글로만 뵙다가 직접 보니 넘 반갑습니다.

10년전… 박평호라는 이름 하나로 시작해서 시후랑이란 팬클럽 창단식이 생길 거라는 기대조차 하지 못하고 오직 앞만 보고 연기를 하겠다는 마음 하나로 달려온 것 같은데 이렇게 이 자리에 눈앞에 계시니 감동적이고 꿈만 같아요.

드라마에서만 보셨던 컨셉 잡힌 박시후가 아닌, 진실 되고 가식적이지 않는 성실한 모습, 저를 보여주고 싶었는데 어떠셨는지 모르겠네요. 저의 그러한 부족한 모습까지도 사랑해주신 팬 분들이 있기에 지금 이 자리까지 올 수 있었다고 생각하고 정말 감사드립니다.

한 순간에 반짝 빛나는 큰 별이 되기보다 비록 희미할지라도 한자리에서 언제나 같은 빛을 발하는 그런 변함없는 꾸준한 배우가 되고 싶고… 그 옆에 우리 시후랑 팬 여러분이 언제나 함께 해주실거라 믿어요.

오늘 하루 저 부담 없이 즐거웠구요. 또 팬 여러분들도 저를 연예인이 아닌 친구로 봐주셨길 바랍니다. 오늘 정말 행복했습니다.

오늘 느낀 이 따뜻한 마음…

여러분과 함께 앞으로 평생 느꼈으면 좋겠네요.

여러분, 정말로 감사드리고…

그리고 사랑합니다!!

 

When I first decided to be an actor, I was determined to go to Seoul on my own, at whatever cost.  Perhaps because of this, I encountered a lot of difficulties when I first started out.  Also because I was not young, so I had a lot of troubles.

Because of the overlap in shooting of “Let’s get married” and ” Which planet are you from”, I fell into a slump.  I could not handle both roles simultaneously and received a lot of reproaches …. At the same time, I felt very grateful to those who offered me advice.

Leaving behind these works with some regret, I took on “How to meet a perfect neighbor”.  Since my first work was rather disappointing, this time I particularly wanted to perform well.  But the harder I tried, the less I accomplished, and the burden was very great.

All along the way all of you Sihoorang fans bore with my many inadequacies and defects, gave me love and consolation, and also worried about me.  Thanks to you all, the drama could be satisfactorily completed.  And after this, I’ll see you all in “Iljimae”.

In order to prepare for my role in “Iljimae”, I am working hard on horse-riding and martial arts so I can look better and appear more manly, more charismatic.

When I’m being interviewed or facing the camera, so nervous that I could not speak, the way you look at me — not like fans but rather like my own older brother, younger brother, lover, family.  Also the way some people look at me like they’re worrying about a child moves me very much, which I will never forget.

When you come to the fan site [ED: at this point PSH gets emotional and chokes] your every word, every sentence gives me courage.  Although I cannot reply to you all …. when I’m tired and lonely, I read these words, every one of them, and I shed tears, I gain courage, I am very moved, I won’t ever forget.

When you come to the shooting set in the hot summer to support me and give me presents, it boosts my confidence …. Because I am busy shooting, I cannot express properly my gratitude or talk to you, but you understand …. Also there are many things we cannot do together, for which I feel very sorry.  All these, hope you can understand.

In the fan site I can only see your words.  Now I can see you in person and I am very happy.

10 years ago, starting with the name Park Pyung Ho, I never thought, never expected that Sihoorang would be established.  I just forged ahead, concentrating on acting, racing forward.  Now I’m standing here, and you are right before my eyes.  I am so moved; it’s like a dream.

I want you to see not the Park Si Hoo in dramas but my real self, nothing false, completely honest.  But I don’t know how you see me.  To me who is so inadequate you still give so much love.  Because of you, I can now stand here – I’m really grateful.

Rather than be a star that flashes light for a moment, I’d rather be an actor who can emit the same brilliance, however faint, all the time, constant, persistent, tireless …. I believe Sihoorang fans in front of me here will stay with me all the time.

Today all day I feel no burden; I am very happy.  And I hope you won’t treat me as an artist but as a friend.  Today I really feel very blessed.

Today my heart feels so warm ….

Hope I can feel I’m with you all the rest of my life.

Really very grateful to you all ….

And, I love you all!!

 

最初我決心要從事演員工作時, 漫無目的獨自前往首爾的心意堅強. 也許是這樣的緣故~ 出道前經歷許了多困難, 也因年紀不小所以也有許多苦惱.

由於電視劇 “我們結婚吧”和 “你來自於那顆星”的重疊拍攝, 讓我陷入意志消沈的狀態, 無法好好掌握角色本身, 也受到許多指責……同時, 對那些對我提出好的建言的各位, 非常感謝.

留下些許惋惜的把作品完成之後, 我又以 “完美鄰居”來跟大家見面了. 由於第一個作品的些許遺憾, 這次更想好好表現, 然而我試圖努力卻反而覺得力不從心,而且負擔很大.

這樣一路走來也還是有許多的不足與缺憾的我給予愛護, 給予安慰,也為我擔心的施厚朗影迷, 多虧各位, 電視劇才能夠好好完成, 之後我又將以 “一枝梅”來與大家見面.

我為了籌備中的”一枝梅”的角色, 正在努力練習騎馬及武術, 也為了表現更好的樣貌, 更好的男性魅力,想以更完美以及另一種風範展現給各位.

當我在接受採訪或面對攝影機, 緊張發抖得說不出話的時候, 各位注視著我的眼神不像是影迷而像似親哥哥, 親弟弟, 戀人, 家人一樣, 還有一些人給予我像似擔心小孩眼神, 讓我感動, 無法忘懷.

各位來到網站 [感情湧上來帶著哽咽的聲音…] 給予我勇氣的那些一字一句, 我雖無法全部回覆… 但是當我疲憊又孤單的時候,一字不漏的看著那些字句, 我流了淚, 產生了勇氣, 並且感動無比的心情, 希望大家不要忘記.

各位在炎熱的夏天來到拍攝現場為我支持加油,並且送禮物給我, 因而讓我自信感倍增… 我因為忙於拍攝無法好好表達感謝, 也無法好好跟你們聊天, 各位也能諒解… 還有很多事情都無法一起做所以心裏常常覺得很抱歉, 這些種種, 希望各位都能了解.

我在網站裡只能看到各位的文字,現在直接看到你們真是非常高興.

10年前… 僅僅由朴平浩這個名字開始, 施厚朗影迷會的創辦連想都沒有想過, 更是沒有期待, 只是一味的向前看, 專心一意想著演技一路飛奔過來, 現在就站在這裡, 各位就在自己的眼前, 太讓我感動了, 做夢似的.

我想讓各位看到的不是電視劇中的人物朴施厚, 而是真實的, 不虛假的, 誠實的樣貌, 但是不知道各位看到的是什麼樣的我. 對於這樣不足的我依然給予愛護的各位, 正因為有你們, 現在我才能站在這裡, 真的非常感謝.

與其成為在一瞬間發光發亮的星星,我更想成為稀微的無論什麼時候都能發出一樣光芒的, 堅持不變的, 勤奮不懈的演員… 我相信在我面前的施厚朗影迷無論什麼時候都會跟我在一起的.

今天一整天我沒有負擔非常開心. 也希望各位不要把我當作藝人, 而把我當作朋友. 今天真的非常幸福.

今天的感覺是這樣溫暖的心…

希望今後一輩子都能感覺到跟大家在一起.

真的非常感謝大家.

還有, 我愛你們.

 

(Credits:  Video made by http://www.sihoochn.net.; original letter in Korean from http://café.daum.net/pyungholove.   Many thanks!  English and Chinese translation by H.A.T.)

 

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17 thoughts on “PSH bares his heart

  1. the more I know about him, the more I love him … Thank you for share such a touching letter … I wish someday I have a chance to attend his fanmeeting :)

  2. dhincoy, like you, the more we know about PSH, the more we love him. That’s why we want to share what he’s said, what he’s written, so his fans can see him as he is.

  3. I remember this, and it brings me to tears again. Just so beautiful how he’s grown from the first time he wrote this. But even more touching is the fact that he is still the sincere, inviting, and friendly Park Si Hoo that we grew with. His inclusion of fans as friends and family, his growth and stamina as an actor and as a person~ they’re all inspiring and they’re what makes me proud to be a PSH advocate!
    Thanks for the work, H.A.T.! ^o^

  4. Awww…so touching. I am a late comer to know him but I am totally an obsessed fan. It is nice there are actual actors that are sincere as he is and hopefully forever be so.

  5. Hi everyone! I am new here. I am tearing as I listen to Park Shi Hoo’s letter and writing this.

    I am a new Park Shi Hoo (PSH) fan after first seeing him in The Princess Man (TPM) . In all my 12 years of K drama viewing and many dramas later,I have never been deeply impressed by any actor until I saw Park Yu Chun in SKK Scandal. He was an excellent rookie. But sadly, he didn’t perform as well in his 2nd drama “Miss Ripley”.

    But watching PSH in TPM blew my mind. Initially, I was awe struck not by his looks but by his charisma. His role was not easy to play as it had to deal with a wide range of emotions from playfulness to infactuation to pain to hatred to loyalty to love to…..lots more emotions and finally resignation to destiny.

    It was a dark role.

    But he portrayed them all so well,I was completely sold. Especially those tender moments with Moon Chae Won, were magic. I have never cried so much over a romance drama until I saw this. How could PSH be that good? I always thought it was hard to show emotions thru your eyes unless they are big ,round eyes like Lee Min Ho’s in City Hunter.

    I had just watched City Hunter and was impressed with Lee Min Ho’s eye expressions ,wearing a mask in the show. So I didn’t think PSH ‘s small eyes could do much in TPM when he was wearing his mask. But I was happily wrong. A good actor like PSH is good, no matter whether you stick a mask below his eyes or cover his eyes completely.

    He is a youthful looking actor, handsome, charismatic, has a killer smile, a fantastic hot body and a nice personality. I am struck by how humble and shy he is, when I watched the popular program “Happy Together” . I cant imagine it was his first time when there are so many other younger singers and actors who have been in it a few times.

    He is now my one and favourite Korean actor I want to support for a long long time.It’s a shame I don’t understand Korean and cant write to him to encourage him that he has fans like me in my country who love him to bits.

    H.A.T, thank you so much for this blog where we can come and learn more about him.Especially when I can only understand English.

  6. Sorry but when did this letter reading take place? If it is at a fan meeting, I am surprised as I have never seen an actor reading out his feelings unless it is an award giving speech. It shows at 33, he is still a shy man.

    He deserves better recognition than what he is getting now. Hopefully he gets an award for TPM . He definitely deserves it. May TPM be the breakthrough show he needs to launch his career.

  7. Sorry. I jumped straight to the main letter and missed the first para. My apologies.

  8. His MBC award speech even though shorter was really sweet. I never love any actor as much as I love Park Si Hoo, he’s a true genius in acting.

  9. Ziera, I wish I understand Korean as I watched that MBC award clip but didn;t know what he was saying.

    And yes, I agree he is a genius in acting. I’d just finished watching Queen of Reversal and Iljimae in a5 days and am halfway thru Prosecutor Princess.And I have already got my Family Honour DVD on standby.

    In Iljimae, I was looking at him all the time instead of at the main lead Lee Jun Ki. Haha ! Just can’t get enough of him.

  10. I almost cried just reading this. Can only imagine how much deeper the fans who understood what he was saying and at the event in person would feel. Especially moved during the line “….nothing false, completely honest.” You can really try to feel what he’s feeling through his letter. Makes you really see that he is very humble and still working hard to deserve our support.

  11. Oh PSH, it brings tears to my eyes listening to him reading the letter to his fans in the video but when I read the letter in English translation, I just cannot stop crying. He is so sincere, so real and he touches every part of my nerves system.

    @Hottie, thank you for ‘bringing’ me to this post…(from your latest article) and making me realize that there are so much more to read and learn about PSH.

  12. Thanks for sharing this. My fondness for him continues to grow. He is the first Korean actor that I’ve ever taken such a deep interest in. I’ve googled Bae Yong Joon after watching Winter Sonata and Lee Min Ho after watching City Hunter but that’s as far as my interest went. PSH, however, left a deep impression on me after watching Princess Man and now that I’m watching Family Honor, I continue to appreciate his talent.

    Getting a glimpse of who he really is from his letter makes me love him even more. I’m rarely a fan of anyone. Thank you PSH for the person you are.

  13. Through the years “I love you all” has become one of the most beautiful expressions in the world to me. Thank you for bringing the love…then and now.

  14. As I am looking for material for the Dutch PSH website, I came here. I can only say PSH hasn’t changed a bit since he had written this very first letter to his fans. Everyone of us should read this letter. Especially, PSH’s longtime fans will recognize how he stayed true to himself over the years.

    Around the time of this post I was still a silent fan, but I was already there and still are.
    I can’t thank Ashley and Hillary enough for all they have done for PSH and created an enormous resource to pass through to existing and new PSH fans! :-)

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